Ok, so I must admit, this blog is not what I had first intended. It was, at first, a blog that I wanted to write that might actually be read. I'll admit my first idea I had: I was going to blog about the crazy messages that some churches put out in front of their buildings.
Here are a couple of signs that spawned this idea...I'll not name the churches (all from different churches,) one was posted around Easter: "For all you do, His blood's for you." I mean really, isn't that the Budweiser logo?...and another one I saw was posted around Thanksgiving, "Aren't you thankful you're not a turkey?" REALLY?!!, that's the message you are sending out at Thanksgiving? and one last sign that really stuck in my head "If you're not right, then you're left." get it? again...REALLY?!!!
So you can see how that grabbed my interest, or maybe it just grabbed me and it is a good thing I'm not blogging about this! And I personally, still think it is a fun idea, just not intriguing enough for me to stick with...hence the name of the blog! But hey, if you are reading this and you want to run with it, it's your's!!
My blogging interest of which I have just not actually acted on, began after I saw that movie Julie and Julia or what ever it was called...the movie of that girl who blogs her way cooking through the entire Julia Childs cook book...what a great idea!!!...and she became famous!!! pretty stinkin' cool!!! I've always wanted to do something that I could do from home and make money at, (deep down inside, being famous would be really fun)...blogging? sounds good to me...I can type!!! Then I saw a girl who blogged for 100 days; she painted 100 paintings in 100 days and the plus side to her blog?= she sold her paintings... why have I never thought of that?...I would love for my job to be being an artist...but let's snap back in to reality, I have 3 kids (a 5 year old daughter, and 21 month old twins!!) who has time to paint 100 paintings in 100 days? there are days I don't get to shower...maybe 100 paintings in a life time at the rate I am going right now.
I'll probably change my title once I figure out how. Preston, my husband, much more techy than myself, set this up for me, so I'll have to ask him. Oh, and don't expect too many pictures, I don't know how to even download them on to our computer, definitely don't expect pictures to show up here!! at least not any time soon! I'm not a techy person, you'll soon find out. I can type, stalk people on facebook, search the internet, and send emails...that's about the extent of my computer knowledge!!!
My reason for wanting to blog now has changed over the year and a half that I first got my idea...I don't care who reads it or if anyone at all even reads it, this is going to be my outlet (pretty sure I'll make no money at it and I'll not become famous, and that's ok!)...I'd like to say "Good bye facebook!" and let this be my outlet instead of fb, but I may have to ween myself off of fb a little bit at a time...I have begun starting to lose interest, and I admit that I have a problem with being obsessed with it...that's a start!!! I have found myself getting even more depressed this summer by reading it...EVERYONE is going on vacation, EVEY MOM out there is SUPER MOM, and EVERYONE has things that I WANT!!! EVERYONE's kid is super smart and awesome!!! (It's all things that make me envious of everyone else!)
It is not being a good thing for my heart here lately!! Especially, when I am not going on vacation right now, I am NOT super mom, and I don't have nor need a lot of material things! And well, everyone's kid is their kid...I hope you do think they are awesome, but really do you have to rub it in everyone else's face? REALLY?!!! It's a given...your kid is the best! And use to, when I heard good things happening to or for others, I was happy, not envious!!I should be happy and thankful for the blessings that I HAVE...they made me happy before there was fb, so what's changed? What's up with me?!!! = I am on fb WAY too much!!
I have always enjoyed my simple life, and now all of a sudden my simple life isn't enough for me? And well, my kids are awesome, but do I need to remind you of it every day?!! Does this make me super mom? Should I be taking them to the park or pool, or different amusement parks, movies, soccer, dance, t-ball? Do I need to announce these things to make me super mom? By everyone else announcing these things does everyone else in the world feel the same as I do, those moms who don't keep their kids entertained every single day of the week? Am I alone in these feelins? Isn't it good to allow your kid to figure out what to do on their own instead of having every day planned?
I'll be honest, there are days that I really would trade one or all of my kids (just for the day) for an awesome sweet silent alone day...is it wrong for me to feel this way? Or I would love to be the one being entertained...ok, I may have just gone too far...I may be a little warped! I should want for their happiness and not mine...but sometimes, my happiness helps me keep the desire for them to have it!! What's wrong with me? =FACEBOOK!!
And I'll be the first to say my kids have faults!! And because I am admitting this, does it mean that I love them any less or think any less of them? Absolutely not!! It should be ok for us as moms to find faults with our kids, that's why we are moms, we are to help our kids be better people and succeed in society. It should be absolutely fine for me to say "My kids are driving be bananas today...I want to just walk out the door and leave them all alone, put them in a kennel where it's nice and cool, give them plenty of food and water! I'll be back soon!" and not get a response like "OMG, you are so funny"..."I cannot believe you just said that." No, wait, I am going to post it on my fb and see what type of responses I would get!! This will be fun...I'll report back tomorrow with my responses!...I did by the way say, I am weening myself from facebook...Rome wasn't built in a day! :)
Anyway, back to my "why I am blogging talk," sort of got off on a tangent there, I have found myself these past couple of days being so overwhelmed with my feelings of being a stay at home mom...and I mean stay at home, I don't get out that often, at least not during the day!!! It's just not worth it. I find myself caught up in feelings of guilt because I usually wait until Preston gets home. I try to get him to stay home with the kids while I run out, or we go together. I don't do fun things with the kids. But I have to say, I don't remember every day growing up having something planned out for me...I think I turned out alright? I need to write my honest heart felt feelings, get them out of my mind, heart and soul...sort of a way for me to give them up to God...a way that I admit my crazy thoughts out loud and not hoard them away inside just for myself. I am no hero or super mom and I am the FIRST to admit that...this will be my way of admitting my secrets, my fears, my trials, my triumphs, my worries,...my life!! Through this blog I am handing things out there to you all and you can agree with me that I am crazy!! :) or you can see that you are not the only momma out there who is not "super mom!" or I might make you mad...of which I apologize now for! :)
But please, if you read this, comment...I'd love to know your thoughts!!!
Here are a couple of signs that spawned this idea...I'll not name the churches (all from different churches,) one was posted around Easter: "For all you do, His blood's for you." I mean really, isn't that the Budweiser logo?...and another one I saw was posted around Thanksgiving, "Aren't you thankful you're not a turkey?" REALLY?!!, that's the message you are sending out at Thanksgiving? and one last sign that really stuck in my head "If you're not right, then you're left." get it? again...REALLY?!!!
So you can see how that grabbed my interest, or maybe it just grabbed me and it is a good thing I'm not blogging about this! And I personally, still think it is a fun idea, just not intriguing enough for me to stick with...hence the name of the blog! But hey, if you are reading this and you want to run with it, it's your's!!
My blogging interest of which I have just not actually acted on, began after I saw that movie Julie and Julia or what ever it was called...the movie of that girl who blogs her way cooking through the entire Julia Childs cook book...what a great idea!!!...and she became famous!!! pretty stinkin' cool!!! I've always wanted to do something that I could do from home and make money at, (deep down inside, being famous would be really fun)...blogging? sounds good to me...I can type!!! Then I saw a girl who blogged for 100 days; she painted 100 paintings in 100 days and the plus side to her blog?= she sold her paintings... why have I never thought of that?...I would love for my job to be being an artist...but let's snap back in to reality, I have 3 kids (a 5 year old daughter, and 21 month old twins!!) who has time to paint 100 paintings in 100 days? there are days I don't get to shower...maybe 100 paintings in a life time at the rate I am going right now.
I'll probably change my title once I figure out how. Preston, my husband, much more techy than myself, set this up for me, so I'll have to ask him. Oh, and don't expect too many pictures, I don't know how to even download them on to our computer, definitely don't expect pictures to show up here!! at least not any time soon! I'm not a techy person, you'll soon find out. I can type, stalk people on facebook, search the internet, and send emails...that's about the extent of my computer knowledge!!!
My reason for wanting to blog now has changed over the year and a half that I first got my idea...I don't care who reads it or if anyone at all even reads it, this is going to be my outlet (pretty sure I'll make no money at it and I'll not become famous, and that's ok!)...I'd like to say "Good bye facebook!" and let this be my outlet instead of fb, but I may have to ween myself off of fb a little bit at a time...I have begun starting to lose interest, and I admit that I have a problem with being obsessed with it...that's a start!!! I have found myself getting even more depressed this summer by reading it...EVERYONE is going on vacation, EVEY MOM out there is SUPER MOM, and EVERYONE has things that I WANT!!! EVERYONE's kid is super smart and awesome!!! (It's all things that make me envious of everyone else!)
It is not being a good thing for my heart here lately!! Especially, when I am not going on vacation right now, I am NOT super mom, and I don't have nor need a lot of material things! And well, everyone's kid is their kid...I hope you do think they are awesome, but really do you have to rub it in everyone else's face? REALLY?!!! It's a given...your kid is the best! And use to, when I heard good things happening to or for others, I was happy, not envious!!I should be happy and thankful for the blessings that I HAVE...they made me happy before there was fb, so what's changed? What's up with me?!!! = I am on fb WAY too much!!
I have always enjoyed my simple life, and now all of a sudden my simple life isn't enough for me? And well, my kids are awesome, but do I need to remind you of it every day?!! Does this make me super mom? Should I be taking them to the park or pool, or different amusement parks, movies, soccer, dance, t-ball? Do I need to announce these things to make me super mom? By everyone else announcing these things does everyone else in the world feel the same as I do, those moms who don't keep their kids entertained every single day of the week? Am I alone in these feelins? Isn't it good to allow your kid to figure out what to do on their own instead of having every day planned?
I'll be honest, there are days that I really would trade one or all of my kids (just for the day) for an awesome sweet silent alone day...is it wrong for me to feel this way? Or I would love to be the one being entertained...ok, I may have just gone too far...I may be a little warped! I should want for their happiness and not mine...but sometimes, my happiness helps me keep the desire for them to have it!! What's wrong with me? =FACEBOOK!!
And I'll be the first to say my kids have faults!! And because I am admitting this, does it mean that I love them any less or think any less of them? Absolutely not!! It should be ok for us as moms to find faults with our kids, that's why we are moms, we are to help our kids be better people and succeed in society. It should be absolutely fine for me to say "My kids are driving be bananas today...I want to just walk out the door and leave them all alone, put them in a kennel where it's nice and cool, give them plenty of food and water! I'll be back soon!" and not get a response like "OMG, you are so funny"..."I cannot believe you just said that." No, wait, I am going to post it on my fb and see what type of responses I would get!! This will be fun...I'll report back tomorrow with my responses!...I did by the way say, I am weening myself from facebook...Rome wasn't built in a day! :)
Anyway, back to my "why I am blogging talk," sort of got off on a tangent there, I have found myself these past couple of days being so overwhelmed with my feelings of being a stay at home mom...and I mean stay at home, I don't get out that often, at least not during the day!!! It's just not worth it. I find myself caught up in feelings of guilt because I usually wait until Preston gets home. I try to get him to stay home with the kids while I run out, or we go together. I don't do fun things with the kids. But I have to say, I don't remember every day growing up having something planned out for me...I think I turned out alright? I need to write my honest heart felt feelings, get them out of my mind, heart and soul...sort of a way for me to give them up to God...a way that I admit my crazy thoughts out loud and not hoard them away inside just for myself. I am no hero or super mom and I am the FIRST to admit that...this will be my way of admitting my secrets, my fears, my trials, my triumphs, my worries,...my life!! Through this blog I am handing things out there to you all and you can agree with me that I am crazy!! :) or you can see that you are not the only momma out there who is not "super mom!" or I might make you mad...of which I apologize now for! :)
But please, if you read this, comment...I'd love to know your thoughts!!!
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